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Saturday, June 12th, 2004
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8:08 pm - moved...
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| Wednesday, June 9th, 2004
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4:32 pm - 3 years since highschool grad...
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+ i still haven't forgotten the night before grad/prom.still can't forgive him for the things he did.still can't put it all behind.
yah, ok, it might seem like as if i put it all behind me, but that nightmare still haunts me. i remember the anger in his eyes. yes i remember how he ruined my perfect night. i don't know if i'll ever be able to completely forgive him for not being there, for not being the proud daddy he should have been.
it's so hard, i can't even put it into words. no matter how hard i try, everytime i look at him, i don't see that wonderful person i used to see... of course i still see him, but now the image of the wonderful person has been infused with a monstreous image. i know i love him deeply but its hard. i mean he was THE person i always looked up to, no matter what. to me, he was the smartest, the gentlest, the sweetest and the most beautiful person in the whole world... but that night, the world collapsed.
+ i'm sick as a dog. gotta love it.
+ i just fukkin luv it when people try to copy me! be it the way i talk, carry myself, dress, style my hair or do my makeup! i know i should be flattered, but dang, sometimes it just drives me nuts.
+ i've been getting along great w/ a guy friend of mine lately. we can talk on the phone for hours. makes me happy.
+ the hubby on the other hand, has been more than remote. weird
current mood:  sick
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| Monday, May 24th, 2004
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11:09 pm
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what better way to spend 'me' time than:
+ warm bubble bath
+ tall glass of coke
+ a yummi novel to read
none i tell you! none! well, unless my tiny tub could magically transform itself into a lucious jaccuzi. :D
+ i have so many things to talk about, but they're all outdated, so i guess it'll all go into private. i also have a ton of pix to upload and share.
+ school is over, well my program is. i have mixed feelings about that. its weird.
+ im finalizing my new lj (some of u have already added me,lol).
+ i start my humanities intensive tomorow. barf.
+ my hubby is the best man in the universe. i heart him.
+ i miss him, i know i will see him again, but it won't be the same, we will never get the chance to be alone. and thus, i will never get to tell him what i wanted to tell him.
+ some girls are really pathetic. its sad. ruining a perfect shopping for ur ex and his friend is not gonna get u anywhere. barf
+ my job search isn't going anywhere :'( im just aobut to despair!
+ more tomorow, i promise
current mood:  crushed
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| Sunday, May 16th, 2004
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10:49 pm - yummi-ness
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this is pretty much what my sathurday night consisted of. all over yumminess. did the costume designers really have to tie their 'skirts' THAT low? it barelly left things to the imagination. let's just say my dreams were filled w/ Brad's gorgeous bum and then some ;)
so many things keeping me up. i can't even concentrate... after my numerous conversations w/ my darling Anna, i keep questioning certain things. not quiete sure what to do. iknow i should be moving on to bigger and better things, but my mind keeps on lingering in the past.
i fell in love w/ a couple of cheezy songs over the past week:
+ nick carter - who needs the world
+ krystal - you're my everything
+ justin timberlake - my eyes adore you
they seem to be making me smile.
sappy moods suck. i know i will be moping around the house once school is over. all these changes are gonna take some time to get used to. and yet there are so many things i still need to do.
Anna, i decided not to give up on the plan afterall. yes it might take me a lil longer, but in the end, i will get what i want! u know i always do. :D and thank you for all ur advice, it is more than appreciated.
i'll update w/ some more personal stuff +more details later on.
-xox-
current mood:  flirty
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| Saturday, May 15th, 2004
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4:52 pm
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| Sunday, May 9th, 2004
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5:16 pm
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| Tuesday, April 27th, 2004
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9:03 pm - been so long...
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i've been busy with school and life. i miss the wonderful world of lj!
<3 it's our 5 years + 9mnths :D
i went to see mom today, she was nice but really depressive. she admitted to me that she fell out of love w/ her bf. she gave me the money i needed. thank god, i can finally go buy all the stuff i need for my final projects :D
my hubby is the sweetest guy in the whole universe, i swear! he came to see me and had lunch with me and the dropped me off at my mom's. then picked me up after my gym class. oh i luv him so. :D he's the only one who can put a smile on my face.
my dad's kitty ran away. he hasn't come back home in 5 days now. dad is so sad and worried, i don't know what to tell him anymore... im worried as hell too.
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| Sunday, April 18th, 2004
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10:08 pm - one of the most fulfulling days of my entire life!
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remember those Jenny Jones episodes called 'from geek to chic'? well, they were my fave ones. and only now i understand how those people felt, adn let me tell you, it feels great!
+ in my first highschool, there was this mean guy in our class. he was basically a bully and he would call me horrible names like slut, ugly bitch and so on. of course they hurt but i was too affraid to ever do anything about it. i could've never worked up the guts to come up to him and tell him off. so 5 years have passed since i last saw this idiot. meeting him again was fulfilling!
so here goes the story:
after spending the night at hubby's house, his mom dragged me along w/ them to go tot he flea market. we got there and were just walking around having fun and laughing at the things people were selling. then all of a sudden, i hear someone call my name, so i turn around and see some ugly bald guy so i decided it would be better to just ignore it. and so i did.
i went into a boutique and he stopped Diego and asked him in spanish if my name was Elena. so hubby is all clueless and hes like yes and then calls me over. i collected all my cool and went over there. (his part of the convo was in french, i'll translate of course, but i'll type in the original too, just for memory sake)
him: tu t'appeles Elena? is your name Elena?
me: oui </i>yes</i>
him: tu allais a outremont? you went to outremont?(name of the highschool)
me: oui. yes
him: mais yo j'etais dans ta classe, tu te rappeles pas? but yo, i was in your class, don't you remember?
so i look at him up and down
me: non no
him: c'est moi, Luis it's me, Luis
at that moment i felt my heart sinking down to my feet. so i give him the biggest, warmest smile you've ever seen.
me: oh well Luis, you know what , you should go fukk yourself!
and walked away, D was soo shocked, he couldn't believe his eyes or ears. as I walked off, he didn't realize what i'd just told him, so he told his friend and Diego that he knows me and that i'm so hot now. then his friend told him that i said something...so he asks
him: quoi? qu'est-ce qu'elle a dit? what?what'd she say?
i turned around and said: 'i said u should go fuck urself u dumbfuk'
you should've seen his face! it was priceless! i was so proud of myself, now i can finally put my past life to rest....
i will cherish this memory forever! take that you bully! see how things turned around in just 5 years?
unbelievable.
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| Monday, March 1st, 2004
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10:23 pm - bid pay?
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| Thursday, May 29th, 2003
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2:20 am - Hello
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Hello! It's me, Elena from urbanbarbie.net. My sweet baby Sandra made me join,lol; she even gave me a code! aaw, thank you babe!
Oh and by the way, this is going to be a friends only journal.
current mood:  happy
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